it takes a lot of energy to breathe things away

maaaaagnitude

everything is slightly overwhelming but slightly calm. i never really understood or even thought about being about to really feel opposite or numerous emotions all at once, or continually...but it does make sense, it's the way it is, and it's definitely overwhelming but good

accepting things really is something else. i'm excited to fall into the goodness of things. i'm just climbing and it burns and aches and hurts but things are still beautiful along the way, so i just keep climbing. sometimes it isn't steep hardly at all, just a clear shot through a beautiful, wonderful experience. sometimes around a curve comes a seemingly impossible steepness. all it is is a matter of pacing. who says anyone has to run at full speed the whole way?

i know i'll get there eventually. i'm not always thrilled about this dang mountain, but i know that at the top i will sit and see in every direction, i will witness the universe looking out on itself through my eyes, i will be connected and of the earth and the air and i will float with the wind (my favorite) and my heart will blaze as it always does.

i can't tell if the analogy sounds so typical or lame, but it expresses it so well that its relieving. refreshing.

i am exhausted, absolutely drained.

i want my energy back to start another great venture up and through. i'll sleep tonight on moss, comfortable and warm, safe and sound. letting my body and mind rest and drifting swiftly through dreams.