what new way of life? what practice? i've done none of that.
last night in a dream i rode the elevator with my back facing the door, but i don't think the other passenger took notice. i don't think the trick worked

i'm searching for a platform to steady my feet on. always thought i saw so much. maybe i don't need to focus on my feet being steady? so i'll focus on the air that i am about to give myself to.

i'm not so much frightened as overwhelmed.

let it go but to really let it go. fall away into air, into nothing.

my mind is seriously being challenged. or just overwhelmed but such an unfamiliar thought process



into anything...