girls

" In June, he had pointed out to her how descriptions of dreams are always fascinating to the teller but boring to the person listening. So now they sat side by side on the balcony with a breeze in the leaves and she thought about the fireflies in her dream, spelling out words in the garden. "

i want to swim to the bottom of the lake and return as a whale

lkjlkj.

two weeks til my birthday!

and ohmy gosh, i wonder who we are.

let me think about telling a story...

-we were all spending some time at sammy's house. we didn't have to spend anytime in side, everyone was satisfied. the night was rising and the dark was sneaking in above our heads.

there were waves of carelessness rippling in between all of the spaces

and it's because we all knew, we were doing enough

because nothing was expected

sammy got the trumpet out and everyone took turns trying to make impressive and nice sounding notes.

no one had to leave and no one was on their way

we all just were there in the grass

andy played some jazz guitar

he reminded me of some fantastic creature

just right

it was all very honest.

nothing more and nothing short

its a daze being 

let it be me

"Well I started because I wanted to impress Person or make up for why Person abused me and now I'm completely in motion, I can't even stop if I wanted to and I love every minute of it (not every minute, but that's true of any great work). "Yes, but what are you producing? What are you creating?" That's what most people claim is the difference between what I'm doing and what I'm drawing parallels with. But I say that I'm creating my own perceptions, I'm creating sensual symphonies and emotional masterpieces. When my world falls and crumbles to pieces, in a matter of hours I can whip up the wind of my personal life into a froth of manipulation and borrowed money and bummed rides and pawned accessories and with my face down in the fucking dirt, surrounded by the foulest scum of the earth, I can feel as high as the damn clouds. I feel like, with my mouth open against the gravel or the pavement, that I could swallow the whole world. I can shape my mind into a mountain, and stretch my body over it like a rubber band, and snap snap snap against the bottom just for fun. I have access to another plane of existence, it's like a magic power that takes certain expensive keys and all of my energy to perform. "